Its been a while

Its been a while since my last update, but Im here today💁..

Actually I am not in a very good state right now🌚..hahaha..since I have nobody to share with so here I am.. I think that nobody is ever gonna read this somaybe it is safe to pour all of it here🌜.. Hahahaha.

Maybe Im acting like a child right now but I cant lie it hurts damn much😞.. Usually I can control my emotion n froze my heart but for some reason I cant..

I know have to hold on but I dont know for how long.. Day by day It keeps bothering me. For a few month I constantly crying because of this person.. Idk why, but I felt like....argh.. Nevermind..

All I knew is that I have to hold on because there is so much to lose if I let this person go.. This person is important to me.. Idk if I can endure the pain of losing again if I let him go because I am already lost.